follow Me, and I will keep you

Hey guys. Bear with me. Today, I volunteered for the first time at a nursing home. And, of course, it was totally awkward. Because I'm awkward and I have no idea how one successfully interacts with others. I'm starting to have second thoughts about nursing, just because I feel like I don't really have the interpersonal skills to be an encouraging presence. I trust that God will lead me wherever I should go, whether that be a different career path, or if I'm what should be changed. It was an awkward experience, yes, but a good one. I painted one woman's nails, and while she couldn't really speak or see, I could tell that there were stories and unimaginable amounts of wisdom through her jaded eyes. It gave me hope for the life and experiences that lie before me. It reminded me that I should live for the future, but also for the present. Because if I'm only living in the future, am I really living? I should remember the lessons from the past as well, but leave the pain. Leave my mistakes. Leave my past desires and self. As I passed through another woman's room, I couldn't help but notice a devotional with the prayer for serenity on the cover. It goes, "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, wisdom to know the difference." That definitely strikes a chord with me, even though it's probably for different reasons. If you've been keeping up with my blog, you probably know why (oh, hello imaginary friends)...

When I got home, I went outside to talk to God. It was hard at first, because I had desires on my heart in addition to seeking His presence, but when I eventually gave them to Him and just prayed for His presence, I suddenly felt the urge to close my eyes and the wind picked up ever so slightly. Call me crazy, but I felt it. (Ever so slightly). I meditated a little more, and when I got up, I suddenly felt the desire to walk back into the woods. I didn't have shoes on and it was pretty dark in there, but I did it anyway. The twigs and debris hurt my feet, but that was quite alright. As soon as I walked under the cover of the trees, it started raining.




"Follow Me, and I will keep you."




"I am the light of the world. Whoever follows Me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." John 8:12


11. Captain - Hillsong United